A beautiful Mind

I watch a movie years ago call the BEAUTIFUL MIND base on John Nash he was an mathematical genius-who suffer from Schizophrenia. I never dream in a millions years that I would have a child who I will call Hope-for the sake of this article with the same disorder, when she was growing up there were no signs of this disorder all she had was some anger issues as I look back maybe that was the tall tale sign. She is very good at writing poetry, Hope had written several poems for people obituaries.  She also did some poetry  for the church events we use to belong too. No one could ever imagine how a mother feels when her child suffers with a mental disorder. Here is one of Hope's Poems that she written in 1998 for our late aunt Jessie Mae who was the foster mother of many children.
Jessie Mae

Who can become a mother of 22 or more in just one day?

Take them all to church and teach them how to pray

Bring them all together almost every Sunday

(no one ) but Jessie Mae

Who could make you sit straight in church

Without causing a scene by giving you a little pinch

Called a RING-A DING (no one) but Jessie Mae

Jessie Mae was a mother to all those whose mothers were not around

She had a special talent for connecting people together

From all around town

She was full of laughter and lots of love

And I am proud to say that she was good friends with the man above

I know that she will be missed much more than before

But let her teachings be your strength that eases your pain away

And let’s try to remember that God has blessed us with more

Than one Jessie Mae

Yes this is one of the many poems that Hope wrote but that all change when Schizophrenia showed it’s face.

As a mother you wish you could go in your child’s brain and take away all their sickness, and also mend the broken pieces – sometimes a parent has to find their own support system because the burden of having to deal with your child mental illness is so heavy. What makes so sad is when you watch your adult child take a turn for the worse and as a parent you ask yourself what could I have done different while caring this child for nine months to make sure this would have never happen? And the answer is I don’t know. And surprisingly as it may seem many people with schizophrenia have been known to be well educated.

MY AWAKENING

 

My Awakening

You buried my heart in a deep dark pit

you bottled up all my tears and threw them in the deep blue sea

you all laugh and dance-because you thought, she won’t survive

Well have I got news for you

I have awaken to a new beginning

I no longer need your approval to be who I want to be

Yes some days are hard, because the crack in my heart is still broken-but yet it’s stronger

I will no longer be stuck in my yesterdays, just because that’s where you thought I’ll be

For I have awaken to a brand new me and now

I AM FREE

Written by Ms.Shirley Dilday,R.S

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The Beauty Of Art

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE 1930’s, 40’s 50’s, 60’s, and 70’s

First we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn’t get tested for  Diabetes

Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright colored lead-paints. we had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors, or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking

As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pickup on a warm day was always a special treat

We drank water from the garden hose and not from a bottle, we shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and no one actually died from this

We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank soda pop with sugar in it, but we weren’t overweight because WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING

We would leave home in the morning play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on

No one was able to reach us all day, and we were OK.  We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes-  a

after running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem

We did not have PLAYSTATIONS, NINTENDO’S X-BOXES no video games at all, no 99 channels on cable, no video tapes movies, no surround sound no cell phones, no personal computers, no internet or internet chat rooms…WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them

We fell out of trees, got cuts, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents.   We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt and the worms did not live in us forever.  We were given BB guns for our 10th birthday, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and although we were told what will happen, we did out put our very many eyes

We rode bikes or walked to a friend’s house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just yelled for them.  Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team-those who didn’t had to learn to deal with disappointment—Imagine that!.  The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was un-heard of they actually sided with the law.  This generation has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever!  The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas. We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL

you might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated our lives for our own good, and while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave their parents were!

This was written by our buildings Coordinator –Ms.Tarrie F. She read this to us at our Residents-October Birthday Party ………..

 

 

 

GOING SHOPPING TODAY

Going Shopping Today

I am going shopping today at the new mall, this is not your ordinary mall.

This mall is a place where you can buy new things and oh by the way you can return all of your old stuff no matter how long you had it. Also it has a place where you can sit down and relax and do some meditation if you like.

So come with me and lets check out this new mall,

first lets drop off some of the old stuff Like -shame, pain, tears that you and I have cried though the years, abandonment , rejection , separation , molestation , and list goes on and on.

Now let do some shopping --so grab a push cart and lets get going. I don’t know about you but personally am going to buy SOME PEACE OF MIND, next FORGIVINESS of those who have hurt and use you, a new smile that says I am doing just fine , and instead of shame and pain just replace it with a NEW HEART FILL WITH JOY AND HAPPINESS.

Now we can sit down and relax a while , we got rid of a lot of old stuff , it feels so good when you can go to the mall and treat yourself to some new things that’s going to make you feel beautiful not only on the outside but most important on the inside of your MIND-BODY-SOUL.

OH BUY THE WAY DID I MENTION THAT YOU DON’T NEED CASH OR A CREDIT CARD FOR

THIS MALL IS OWN BY GOD.

 

Witten buy Shirley D-RS

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My Grandson Christian and Jordon

My Family - 1rIQn-105 - normal, a photo by chinadoll1010 on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
both of these digital framing was done on a web-site that I came across called
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